Center of attention

My neighbor told me about a program on Tuesday mornings at the Seminole County Library for babies. I decided to take Hailey this morning and see what it was like. They sang songs, sang a book, walked, play with a tamborine and bells, waived scarfs, etc. Hailey had a blast. There were a lot of babies there. Some older, same age and younger than Hailey.

She sat on my lap for the first few minutes just staring. Then she suddenly decided she had to be the center of attention and was determined to sit in the center of the large rug everyone was gathered around. The center of attention. Then she visited other babies. She was having a blast until I wouldn't let her chew on the hand bells all the babies were given to shake. I think I'm going to make this an every Tuesday thing. The classes are in 30 min. increments and we stayed for two. When we got home, she was ready for bed. It must have tuckered her out cause it wasn't quite time for her nap but she went to sleep in my arms anyway. (Which I don't mind cause she doesn't do that much anymore!)

Hailey is doing pretty good eating solids now. Okay... stepping on soap box for a second and then I will get back to the Hailey eating thing. Why do they call them solids? This so confuses me. It's not solid. It's mushed up! They should call it mushies and then when the baby is actually eating solid food then it is called solids. Stepping off... I am still BFing Hailey too. This has become difficult as she just wants to play. She has never been a very good nurser in the sense that she tends to graze more than get festively plump. You can tell that by her weight. But now it is even worse cause she will nurse for a few minutes and then want to play. I will wait a little bit and then try again. Maybe I will get a few minutes more of nursing. But this takes up time and can be difficult if I have things to do or we have to go somewhere. I thought about maybe it is time to give her more bottles but she does the same thing with bottles. My mom will even hold the bottle in Hailey's mouth while Hailey is playing to get her to drink more. lol... I don't think that will work well with BFing. haha.

I have to admit I'm kinda starting to count down till Hailey is a year old and we can switch to cow's milk. I will still try to nurse in the morning and at night for a bit. It will be hard for me to let go of nursing. I won't have that way of connecting with her anymore. I know once it is completely done it is going to be a little emotional for me. It is one way that I comfort her too. There was one day that I don't remember what happened but Hailey was so very upset. Even though Sean and I were trying to get out the door to something, I said I just gotta nurse her to calm her down. It was like we needed each other and this internal motherly instinct totally kicked in and took over. What if I have that feeling after I have weaned? It will be an urge that I can't do anymore. I hate uncompleted feelings. Yuck. I know, it will all work itself out and we will connect another way. I can look at it this way... I am nursing her now and forming a LASTING connection with her now. Yes. That is the way I will look at it. I will not be losing any connection with her. Just changing a bit. Morphing. But until then, I will enjoy BFing and having this special time with my baby. =o)